Tuesday, December 09, 2008
God's will?So, i might not be going to London after all.
Hell, i'm not even going to Australia for my holiday.
If you're having the 'O_O WHUUUUUUUUT??' expression now, picture me exactly like that, but a thousand times worse.
So today my parents and I went to this building to get this UK Student Visa thing which i require to be a student there.
Filling up the annoyingly lengthy forms were bad enough. The form is at least fifteen times longer than that white sheet of paper you need to fill in to enter Malaysia.
What is worse is the fact that getting my student Visa would take 15 working days, excluding the weekends and the Christmas holidays, which would take three days.
And during the course of my whole application, my passport is to remain with the British authorities. Which is something i find absolutely absurd, considering the fact that i have given them a photocopy of my passport AND a photocopy of the photocopy of my passport. (-_-) So why do they even require the original version?
Which means, i can't go to Perth, Australia, which i was supposed to this week, as my passport is not with me.
Which means that my family is in a dilemma of whether to go without me or stay with me because they'll be spending my birthday without me. (I told them, though, to just go, because it would be selfish to cancel a holiday because of my goddamned passport.)
That was slightly disappointing, but i don't really feel much because Perth is a really dead town where not much shopping can be done.
That isn't the issue though.
Since the application for the student visa card will take 15 working days, my mother counted and that means the EARLIEST i will get it is on the 2nd of January, 2009.
Which means my parents would have to cancel BOTH my plane ticket to Australia AND my plane ticket to London on the 1st, and postpone my flight to probably the 3rd of January.
Which also means that i have to adjust to the London time (which is 7 or 8 hours earlier than Singapore, i can't remember) a couple of days prior to that, so i won't go to my school on the 6th of January looking like a zombie because of jetlag.
And there is also another problem : I don't even know if the British authorities will reject my application or not.
So the inevitable question comes to mind : With so many things hindering my way to get what i want , is it God's way of telling me that this is not meant for me?
I can't do anything now but pray. Neither can my parents. They've given me incredible support and done everything humanely possible to help me.
But why must my luck be like this, as compared to say, my brother?
My brother didn't make the cut for the secondary school he intended to go to. My parents appealed and he got in. I slogged my arse off in primary six and didn't get to the secondary school i wanted.
The principal of my brother's college in Croydon accepted him not based on his prelims, but based on his 'family history'. This year the principal changed and is an extremely strict one. My parents applied for that college but he plainly said that my prelim results did not qualify and therefore i was on the waiting list.
My mother remember my brother getting this student visa card within a week or less of application. I have to wait for more than three weeks and get my holiday - the last chance of me spending some time with my family IF i were to go to London - cancelled.
So let's say i don't go to London and stay in Singapore.
How much will i get for my O levels? What JC can i go to with those results? If i can qualify for VJC how pressurising will it be? What about TJC?
In the end, if God doesn't let me have the job i want, what will my future be like?
inside out at 11:32 PM
